Blah!

"Silence is the strength of our interior life... If we fill our lives with silence, then we will live in hope." Thomas Merton

My house is silent, with just the sound of the clock ticking in the background and the computer humming and keyboard clicking as I type this blog. Other than that it is quiet. Usually at this point of quietness my mind starts going into overdrive, but not today. Today, I just sit here, enjoying the "blahness".

My mind is blank. When I try to think of something to say or write, all my mind gives me is a big black "nothing". It's just "blah"!

It's been a long time since I have had this "blah" feeling. I'm not feeling sad. But neither am I "happy". I am just here. I welcome this stillness, knowing it will not last for very long.

"So in our healing from the wounds of grief, a generous amount of silence will help us rest into the depths of our own souls, and find peace.... I will not be afraid to be still. I will savor the refreshments of silence..." - Martha Whitmore Hickman, Healing After Loss

Times up! The silence was just broken with the ring of a telemarketer - but that's ok. I did not answer it. I feel a little refreshed and am ready to get into the afternoon. It are these moments of quietness, however brief, that I feel a peace in the silence. It lets me know that I'm ok...